Hundred days in Korea

Tomorrow is the hundredth day in Korea since I came back from India.

That is 2376 hours.

Of that I have spent with you roughly 18 hours. That is 0.8% of the time I spent here.

I am angry with myself. I am angry with the world.

I am angry because everything felt unfair.

I got angry with your mother last time we met.

I wait the whole month to see you and when you wanted to see a movie with me, your mother just said NO - that’s not the agreement. I will be honest, the way she said it triggered my anger.

But your mother rushed as if to protect YOU. It was not you I was angry with.

Unfortunately it came out in a big uncontrolled way.

I am sorry. It’s too late to say this, and it probably makes no difference. But I am.

I don’t have flowery words to express my despair.

I will keep working hard.

I will fight for you with everything I have.